Battle with ADHD

I didn't know it was ADHD. TBH. All i knew was if im thinking of something, i forget what is happening in front of me, forget things so much, fidgeting and more.

I couldn't concentrate in activities i found boring. And what was even more anoying was if i wanted to sleep it off, i couldn't another tought came up instantly. My head was full of toughts. I paced alot and could walk sooooo long and be thinking and talking to my self. 

I don't didn't know why i was called a weirdo, but didn't care either.

It got worse, the forgetfulness most notably. My parents almost got fed up of buying things for me. Misplaced phones (honestly, can't count) , bags, and even myself.  The daydreams got worse too. When i got to high school, I couldn't concentrate on my studies. If my teacher spoke, i didn't even know.

Getting to the university was a bit different, i could manage it sometimes, cuz i knew my studies was very important.

Once you take Adderall you won't wanna stop. It brightens your mood. I can remember first time i took it. I was blessed, but latter tried not to abuse it.

Adderall is in my opinion one of humanity's strangest drugs. It messes with the neuro transmitters in one's brain and changes mood. It reminds me of the book by Aldous Huxley, brave new world. When everyone took soma, a recreational drug to induce happiness. 

I wouldn't say it makes me happy though, but it sure brightens my mood. 

One of the perks of ADHD is hyperfocusing. Its the reason why i cant multi task so much. If i focus on a thing, a person, i become obsessed and every other thing fades. 

I can remember when i was doing my M.B.A and co-founding a different startup, i had to drop out, because i couldn't concentrate at all on my studies.  

It helps sometimes and sometimes doesn't. It helps if what im thinking of is beneficial to my life, and harmful if otherwise. Its why im very selective of what i focus on.